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thank you

i am eternally grateful
for the little things you do
that light me up like a christmas
                         tree

thank you for smiling at me
thank you for giving me that look,
you know the one
where you see right through
all the bullshit that i keep at the surface
as if it was all made of glass;
you act as if my shields were not even there
when you peer into my very core
and discover all my weaknesses
all my mistakes, my fears, my sins
and every flaw i have ever tried to hide;
you see it all
and here i stand before you
                         completely naked
                         defenseless
                         ready to die
but instead
of taking advantage
of my vulnerable state
you promise
to
reach out
and wrap me up
                         tight
and never let me
                         go
and i
feel safe
if only for
a little
while

thank you
for giving me
                         hope
                         kindness
                         understanding
                         faith
                         a future
                         joy
                         dignity
                         warmth
when all i
asked for
was your
hand

i will forever be in your
                         debt

please tell me how
i can repay you
and i will spend
the rest of my life
making payments to you
i will sign over the deed to my soul
to you as collateral
i will let you foreclose
on my heart
because it already
belongs to you
                         anyway

The devil came up behind me and poked me in the back.

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TJ started walking today. He’s been taking a few steps on his own over the last few days, but today is the first we’ve seen him stand up and purposefully walk around without any help or hesitation.

That, and he’s figured out how to open all the cabinets we’ve yet to childproof.

We’re in trouble now.

My birthday was a few days ago, and my great friend David Wachter sent me this drawing of the kids as a present. It’s based on a picture from their trip to the pumpkin patch earlier this month.

This is the coolest gift I’ve received in a long time. Dave is quite a guy.

My daughter’s CT results came back and she’s all clear. The scan showed nothing abnormal about her increase in head growth. I guess she just has lots of brains. (She gets that from her old man.)